One more post

After the last post, I felt I needed to add this.

Please don't get the idea that because I want an all natural birth that I won't do what is necessary if there becomes a need. I will. I want that natural birth oh so very bad- to go into labor on my own, labor without meds, have a delivery without intervention. But if either myself or the baby becomes in danger, that all changes and I'll have to do what's best for us, which in the case of an emergency is most likely an emergency delivery.

I say this because the following. I'm scared. I'm scared because of some symptoms. I'm scared because my blood pressure prior to pregnancy and even throughout the first half or so was much lower than it is now 90s/60s or even lower. It's slowly been creeping up and now it's topped that safe 120/80 range. After being up and about it's gone even higher. I'm also having blurry vision. It scares me because it's getting closer and closer towards pointing to pre-eclampsia, and if you don't know what that is it's extremely serious- for both mom and baby.

Anyways, my dr is awesome and I can contact him anytime. I asked him about this and he said not to worry (yes yes I know you all agree not to worry) unless it hits 140/90 after sitting for at least 5 minutes. Ok so that does ease my concerns a bit. But I'm probably still going to worry some. And yes I'm sure that worry is contributing to the high bp. I just feel like I'm on the clock- needing to get this baby out naturally before time ticks down to nothing and there is no further option beyond induction or c-section.

Another reason I don't want an induction or c-section is because J. Induction means even more pain meaning more risk of epidural- I may not be able to get one even if I want one because of scoliosis. Induction also can fail and lead to c-section. End result being if it's an emergency, it will be general anesthesia and J won't be able to be there. He didn't get to experience his daughter's birth. I want him to be there so bad, to be in this with me. He wants to be there. We want to go through this together and share in that experience for the first time together. Please Lord, please let me go into labor naturally- soon- before further talks of induction. Please Lord, bring this baby out in Your time and have our own time wait patiently upon Yours. I trust in You and hand all my worries to You. In Jesus' name, Amen.

Please join me in that prayer and for a healthy and safe last part of this pregnancy and birth of our little miracle. Thank you!

Ps. Telling me not to worry personally doesn't at all help me. I'm a first time mom, I'm going to worry. But supporting me by joining me in prayer helps tremendously! 💗💗💗