Prayer request for a scary situation

Today starts Dysautonomia Awareness Month. I will make a post to explain that, but for now I just have a quick update with prayer request.

If you've been following along, you know I've recently added Lyme Disease and Bartonella to my list of diagnoses. Treatment started about 3 weeks ago with the sudden onset of horrible symptoms, but there was an additional medication added just this past Monday. Since then, I've been affected mentally/emotionally. My mood has been very different- very easily agitated, very impatient, short fuse, angry but then also easily emotional, moments of anxiety/jittery, and then sometimes sparks of feeling like I can do many things at once and take on the world. It's scary and I don't like it one bit. This isn't normal me. The only way I've been mentally affected in the past has been with short term memory issues, word recall and just overall brain fog. I can handle that. This, not so much.

Here's the thing. We can't know for certain what is causing this. Is it "lyme rage" as they call it, a symptom of lyme? Is it the bartonella? Is is the herxing- which is when the lyme and/or bartonella are being killed off and it causes increased symptoms? Or is it what is listed as a serious side effect to this medication? Or the other medication? My thought is it's from this medication-whether be a side effect or a die off effect of the bartonella I am not sure.

I've already spoken with my doctor and he is aware of this. Today I'm not taking this med. Tomorrow we will start again with one a day instead of two a day. He said if my mood gets normal and stays that way for a week we can stay on this. If not, we have to come off of this, and try a new med.

As much as I want nothing to do with this med, I do want it to work and be able to tolerate what it does to me. Not only because it was expensive but because every new medication I have to take causes a new risk, and there are already too many medications out there that I cannot tolerate.

The whole thing is pretty scary. To feel like you don't have much control over your own mind. So please, if you will join me in prayer that whatever it is affecting me mentally and emotionally, and well physically too, it all just goes away. The lyme goes away, the bartonella goes away, as well as the MG, POTS, etc etc. Lord, just please make me healthy, whole and renewed in You. I can do this only because of You. Philippians 4:13. It's in Jesus' name I pray. Amen.

Thank you and God bless.