Lyme Rage

Lyme rage is what they call it. "It" being what I've been going through and yeah, it's rough... not only for me but all those who come in contact with me. So, here's your warning and information on it.

Mood swings can be a symptom of lyme disease, a symptom of bartonella (the tick-born co-infection I have), a side effect of the medications I'm on, and a herxing or die off effect when the lyme and bart get killed by the meds. This ranges from aggravation and frustration to anger, having a VERY short fuse, blowing up at the stupidest little things, being emotional, break downs, horrible sad negative depressive feelings and anxiety. It's nothing like I've ever experienced before and I cannot control it. I repeat, I cannot control it. I don't know when it will come on, I don't know when it will stop. All I know is I do not feel myself and I strongly dislike feeling that way.

So please, do not take offense if I happen to abruptly chew your head off in the coming weeks, months or even years for however long it takes to get this lyme and bart to go away. I apologize in advance. It has nothing to do with you; please don't take it personally. I just pray that my friends and family and anyone I come in contact with along the way will understand this, have the patience with it, and be supportive to me. I pray that the lyme and bart actually do go away instead of stay or hide out in remission. I also pray that the lyme and bart take with them the mg, pots, candida, adrenal fatigue, etc.

What can you do? Well, my triggers for this seem to number one be stress. So if you can help me avoid stress, all the better. Negativity, criticism, judgement, control seem to be others. If I experience those things right now I seem to snap. So I guess, if you want to help me get through this, just be positive, focus on the good both with my life and when you talk to me whatever it is you are talking about. Allow me to live how I can and do what I can and help me when I can't if I want the help. Please. Don't be fake but try to help me stay focused on the good. If there are things that I really don't need to attend to or answer, just help me out by not bringing it up. This all may seem like no big deal, or it may seem like a lot, I don't know. I just know I need your help getting through this lyme and this is one way you can help. So thank you.

Lyme is so much more serious and debilitating than it's made out to be. I will have to write a post just about lyme in the near future. Until then, I've got some major plans in the works. I say major because it is compared to my life for the past 4.5 years while being sick. Heck, even if I wasn't sick, this is pretty big. So please pray with me if you will for the strength, endurance, energy, ability and right mind to not only get through this but to enjoy these plans I have coming up. I want to look back and say, wow, I actually did that! ...and then plop down on my bed and hibernate to recover.

I need to do what I can, when I can, all the while saying 'I think I can.' Because truly, with God, I can.

Thanks for your support, encouragement, love and prayers. God bless you.