Attitude

A situation arose in which various scenarios could have played out from it. I played the waiting game on it for some time. Last night I received some good news.

I was overjoyed, so excited, thrilled about the news. Receiving that one bit of news made every light shine brighter, made every problem seem smaller, made the world seem blissful.

If I didn't encounter that problem, I would have never received this good news that resolved the problem. And in which case, I would never have felt how wonderful I did.

So think about that...

Something negative, or possibly negative, had to happen in order for the positive to come forth from it. You really can't have one without the other. We always want good good good, fun, excitement, happiness, etc. Of course we don't want the bad. But if we never experienced anything bad, how could we possibly feel the benefit of anything good? We wouldn't even know what good was. Everything would just be eh, one flat line.

I thought to myself, after something so good, something not so good is bound to happen. It just is. That's what life is about, the ups and downs. Well, today I woke up with an alarm, fasting, and went to the doctor's office to get my blood drawn. Now keep in mind, if I don't wake up naturally, my body is completely thrown off for the whole day. Fasting is difficult for me for the same reasons. And of course driving to a doctor first thing isn't exactly my preference of a Friday morning. So I arrived, of course early, and waited til they opened the office. I waited some more. Then the nurse came over and informed me the test would not be covered by insurance, after I had already been told that it would. I could choose to pay $800 to get it done out of pocket, but no thank you!

I could have gotten very angry that I had to wake up early, fast and go into the doctor for absolutely no reason. Granted, I wasn't exactly happy about such a thing. But instead I decided to keep on smiling. I looked at the positive rather than the negative. Thankfully, they found out insurance wouldn't cover the test before they submit it and I got hit with a huge bill. Thankfully, they found out insurance wouldn't cover the test before they drew my blood or else I would have been even weaker for no reason. Losing blood is very hard on POTS patients. And because of how this morning played out, I was able to see the sun rise, something I really never get to see. I got some coffee from Starbucks, something I rarely ever do. And I decided to force myself to stay awake instead of going back to sleep to try to get back on a better sleep schedule. I've been waking up way too late and going to sleep way too late. And my day is going to be so much better because I chose to keep on smiling regardless of the circumstances presented to me.

There are going to be ups and downs. There are going to be good times and bad times. That is life. We don't have the power to control what comes our way, but we do have the power to keep a good attitude about it. And even when we get down about something, remember that without feeling down, you wouldn't feel the joy that comes from an opposite experience.

So add those hills, add those mountains. Even if you feel that last ounce of energy drip off from you, keep on keeping on. Smile when you feel you have no reason to because the reason will come when you least expect it. That storm will end with a beautiful rainbow. Enjoy it while it lasts, and remember there will always be another rainbow... so smile through that storm.

Thank you so much to everyone who has been praying with me. Please keep praying... for God's will to be done. God bless.