Carries me through this

The dr called. Again, come in today instead of tomorrow. I'll be heading there in just under an hour. Your prayers are appreciated.

As I was getting ready my mind was wandering. And it came upon this. And then I felt, God told me to write, on this topic.

I had a dr's appointment last Tuesday, ultrasound Wednesday, dr's appointment this Monday, CT scan Wednesday, dr's appointment today Thursday. I can't keep this pace up. Add in church, bible study, grocery shopping, spending time with my husband and things for my stepdaughter, and I really can't keep this pace going. I'm so worn out. I hope and pray that when I go to the dr today it can all be over, there is nothing wrong, no more testing or appointments needed. Because really if I need it, I also need God's strength to get through it. And I know He will provide it.

But here's the thing I feel I'm supposed to write about. When you have a chronic illness, in my case the ones affecting me here are MG and Lyme Disease, everything is tougher. So you add in all these appointments and they really wear you down. That's not a good thing when your body is already worn down just from the chronic illness. Now what if, what if, I need to have surgery, treatments or keep these appointments going? That means my body isn't going to be at it's best capacity going into it because I'm already worn down. And the stress just adds to it. So now appointment after appointment, already worn out, say I need surgery- well my body definitely won't be prepared to get through that. So again, God's strength is all I need to rely on. I can't do this.

And I feel that's all I'm supposed to write about. Maybe this post was for me, a reminder to depend on Him, that He's the One who gets me through this.

But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 2 Corinthians 12:9

Prayers that He carries me through this. Amen? Thank you and God bless you.