I got lyme AGAIN

Two weeks ago, I joined two others on a short walk, a very short walk. But pretty much as soon as I exited the car I was attacked by bugs- mosquitos and who knows what else. If only people could love me as much as bugs do. Getting back into the car upon ending our walk, I was still covered in bugs. I searched myself and killed or kicked off as many as I saw, but the damage was already done apparently.

Two days later I noticed a red rash appearing. I knew it looked all too similar. The classic bullseye rash. Lyme disease. Only this time I'm almost certain I got it from a mosquito. Yes, that is possible.

Since then my body has been in a lot of pain. My joints feel so stiff and inflamed. I've been weaker, especially my arms, which over night feel paralyzed. My mood is off. I'm so tired all the time. Not like I wasn't already dealing with all this, but now it's just hitting me harder once again.

I got lyme back in college which laid dormant in my system until I first got sick in 2010. It got diagnosed when I got lyme again last September, almost a year ago. I was hoping to soon switch from antibiotic treatment to herbals. But alas, I now get lyme for a third time, and pretty much have to start all over.

This makes me angry. It really does. I hate this battle I have to fight. But what is even harder is getting other people- family, friends, acquaintances and even doctors to believe and understand the seriousness of this battle I fight. Half the battle is having people on your side, but lyme disease often makes you feel quite alone. Because those in charge hide the epidemic of it. They say its arthritis or MS or chronic fatigue syndrome, or anything and everything other than lyme because of the political controversy behind it. It's not like cancer where everyone's got your back and the world turns pink for a month. No I wouldn't want to have cancer, but you know what, lyme is no better. Not one bit, told from people who have had both. The lyme disease battle isn't a few months or years fight. It's forever. I fight forever, and mostly an invisible fight to the outside world.

So when I say I can't do something, such as join you at a gathering that is in a wooded area, accept my words that I can't as your answer. I have a reason behind what I do and what I don't do. You may think I'm not living and restricting myself, but I do what I have to do to enjoy the highest quality of life that I can. I have to pick and choose. I have to control my environment as much as possible. I have to often say no in order to say yes to something else. You may not agree, but you aren't me. You aren't fighting this battle, and thank God for that.

I connect to God through nature yet every time I attempt to be in nature something bad seems to happen to me. No doubt the devil has his hands in this. So please join me in praying and rebuking the devil in the name of Jesus, that God's protection surrounds me, that God's healing fills me, and that God's peace lifts me. Thank you.