Money Making Industry

I'm sick of it. That's right, I am absolutely 100% sick of it. I'm referring to the healthcare industry.

I'm sure there are still some doctors out there who's true intent and passion is to help the patient, to heal, to better the lives of others. But from what I've seen and experienced those doctors are especially few and far between.

I went through this in Texas, and I'm going through this again in Illinois. Sent around- doctor to doctor to doctor. What do they do for you? Nothing. What can you do for someone with so many health issues who doesn't respond well to treatment? Nothing. And yet I'm forced to go because if I don't I get marked down as someone who doesn't follow their worthless advice and "treatment"... as non-compliant. And then when I get in an emergent situation, they see that and write me off as anxiety and don't take me seriously. It's absolutely ridiculous.

And after every one of these worthless visits or incorrect tests, I'm sent a bill, typically quite large. Bill after bill after bill. And who wants to help you then? No one.

I just received a bill from a doctor which I spent probably 15 minutes with and absolutely NOTHING was accomplished... prior to insurance negotiated rate would have been about $360... even with insurance negotiated rate my portion is about $250. $250 for 15 minutes. Are you kidding me? That's $1000 an hour. For nothing. Absolutely nothing. Other than to pay back their student loans of going through medical school. Seems like a can of bonus nonsense to me.

So I'm forced to spend money, and more money, and more money... for what? I feel like I am just flushing it down the toilet to be honest. Like I said, nothing gets accomplished at these visits. These treatments and medications don't help. If anything it all makes me worse- so then what? So then I can spend more money.

It seems it is ALL about the money. Not about the patient's well being. It's an industry after all, a money making industry. The doctors, the pharmaceutical companies, and you can throw a few other sectors in there as well but I won't go off on that right now because that will get me really revved up.

If you have the money you can do this day in and day out, no big deal, other than your time and your health that's already messed up of course. If you have absolutely no money or legal documentation then what happens? You get it all written off. Free healthcare. So what happens to those that fall in the middle? Those like me. Those who worked up until the point that they couldn't anymore even though they still want to work. Those who really do need the help but aren't given it. Those who get punished for saving a little bit of money and then all that savings goes towards medical bills. Those who spend everything they have on healthcare and typically are financially supported by others otherwise because they just can't do it, they can't work. That's the real financial hardship. And why aren't we helped?

This is why time and time again I say I'm done. I'm done with it all. I'm done going to doctors. I'm done taking medication that has more side effects than I have symptoms. I'm done undergoing testing just to put more money in the pockets of the healthcare industry. It's the industry of medicine, not the industry of healing, and medicine costs and makes money. Out of my pocket, into theirs. So that they can live awesome lives with great vacations while I continue to suffer unable to even drive myself somewhere. Why bother to have nothing accomplished? Why not take what little money I have and somehow physically take myself on vacation? Spend it on what I enjoy? Do things that matter. Give back to others. I don't know how physically but there's got to be a way... and it won't involve placing more money into the hands that those that have more than enough from doing less than enough.

In the end we're all only given so much time to live and none of us know how long that time is, even if at some point were given an estimation. And typically if we're given an estimation and we have the energy to, we go and live, really LIVE. Why do we wait to start living until we start dying? I want to start living now. I'm done with doctors and testing and medication. I'm done with poisoning my body to fall closer towards that end point. I'm done with throwing my money at those who don't need it. I'm done with focusing on what to do to prevent nearing death, and start focusing on living the days that I have. Every day is a blessing and right now all I have is this one. And if it were to be my last I certainly don't want to spend it sitting in a hospital wasting my time and money to pretend we're helping my body when really we're not.

And so I digress and unfortunately remember I have 2 tests tomorrow. I don't want to go. I absolutely do not want to go. What is the point? If it turns out to be something serious then I have to go through even more stuff and put more money in their pockets for the slight chance that it could maybe better my life in some way. And if it turns out to be nothing, they still get my money for performing those tests just to tell me nothing new. Doctors should get paid according to how well they do- heal me- I'll give you pretty much everything I've got. Cause me nothing but more problems, and you pay me for those additional problems. Yet then probably no one would go into that industry, because you know, who wants to take responsibility for their work anymore in this ridiculous modern society we live in?

Please pray for healing- body, mind and soul- not just for me but for this nation.